Apparently it takes a half-a-
lifetime of experience to figure out how to take it easy on yourself. At least that is what we are figuring out…and there is no place that shines the light of this more brightly than urban homesteading.
With planting schedules, weeding, mulching (so you don’t need to weed, duh), harvesting honey, splitting wood, breeding schedules for rabbits, thinning seedlings, tending to molting chickens and nevermind the three working adults and a 16 year old with his first full-time summer job! Oy!!!
Thankfully Michael and I humbled ourselves several years ago and began to meditate and pray together each morning. We repeat the same morning prayers each day. One of the lines in our prayer, “Grant us an understanding heart, Equal vision, balanced mind…” jumped out at me this morning – like I had never heard it before! I realized that in this request of God we are asking Him to help us see ourselves (and others of course, but that is another story) right sized – not all good, and not all bad but with EQUAL VISION and a BALANCED MIND.
Sometimes…no, most of the time Michael and I are muttering under our breaths to ourselves about what we forgot to do, or missed out on, or did not plant in time. But if I was allowing God to bring me what I request every morning, equal vision and a balanced mind, I would be walking around muttering under my breath, how great it is I got my kitchen clean after breakfast, and how awesome that I have three loads of laundry on the line by 10:30am, and how I meditated, showered and dressed before 7:30, and how blessed I was to answer the phone and be of service to a friend who needed to talk and how I remembered to start dinner in time to feed my family before an evening of obligations!
I thought I was a conscious pray-er, but it seems I need to slow down, think about what I am asking for, and then get out of God’s way and receive His Grace and Mercy!! One of my favorite scriptures is Hebrews 4:16 (KJV) “Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.” I prefer the KJV because it interprets “in time of need” – leaving open whose need God is giving me grace and mercy for. Which in this case might be my own!
Thank you God for this equal vision today. Thank you for letting me see myself with Your eyes!